I have considered Lasik surgery for quite some time now. This may seem insignificant to many, but to those who have had glasses for a considerable amount of time you may understand where I am coming from. It is not a permanent procedure as age will affect my eyes, but for the time being I would love to be able to get on the ground and play with my children without having fear that my glasses would be broken. I have tried contacts before and did not care for them.
In most of my childhood memories, I remember not playing sports or rough housing with others because of my glasses. Sure they would naturally get bent out of shape, but these were my way of seeing. This is something that others growing up around me did not truly comprehend. They took their sight for granted where I had to be cautious.
I always seemed afraid of the consequences of them becoming broken. Not being able to read and follow along with what was written on the whiteboard in class. Having to be extra careful walking home so I do not take a false step and fall down. Being unaware of what I am grabbing at home. Missing out on the definition that other “normal” kids could see. These fears kept me from quite a few things, especially sports.
Now I understand that they make prescription goggles for playing sports, but I did not have the opportunity to get one. So having just my glasses on, I was always nervous to make contact with someone else even in a none contact sport like basketball. I loved to play basketball and still do, but always felt left out. The fear of colliding with someone. The fear of the basketball getting loose and knocking off my glasses. It always comes back to my glasses.
Yes, my own fear and worry about my glasses had hindered my childhood, but it should not hinder my children’s childhood fun with their father. Someday, I want to be able to get a surprise attack from one of my kids. Someday, I want to be able to sporadically jump in a lake with one of my kids without having a second thought. Someday, I don’t want to worry about where my glasses are when they are not immediately on the nightstand when I wake. Someday, I want to be free to be me.
