I had a life threatening event happen lately that barely anyone knew about. My appendix tried to do me in. This made me have to learn how to maneuver around again in an instant. Now, about a week and a half later I am almost back to normal, except lifting restriction. It was a week and a half that completely threw me off because people actually approached me and wanted to talk. This never happens, but because I had surgery and have these soon to be scars people we more apt to hear my story.
As I stand here showering, trying not to reopen the areas where the doctors had cut I think about what it is about scars and people being intrigued about the stories behind them. I have one on my eyebrow that people sometimes notices when the conditions are right, a.k.a. I am warm and the scar becomes bright red. They will ask me about it and seem more interested that I fell off my bike, tore half of my eyebrow off and had to find help to bring me home rather than to hear about my weekend. People who I rarely talk to will also bring up their scars and the story of how they got them like it was some sort of bonding experience. Do people just like talking about themselves or justifying why they have a “minor deformity”? Am I suppose to continue the conversation with another relatable scar that I have? I am not sure.
Feeling the three bumps on my belly from the surgery also got me thinking about a different type of scar, emotional scars. These are scars that people may never see, but can hear about. These can be even more painful that physical scars because they may never heal. I have heard different sorts of emotional scars be brought up in conversations as to transition topics. Some people are fascinated by these emotional scars, some could care less and others sometimes use them as an excuse. I have actually used that last one for dogs as there was a large black lab on our street that would attack anything it could.
So what is it with scars both emotional and physical? Do they define us as a being? Does having less scars make you less interesting? Why do people insist on talking about them as topics of conversations? I guess being sort of a social outcast hinders me from lifting up my shirt and showing my scars to people.
Got any interesting stories hidden behind some scars? Comment them below.
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